For a majority of people around me, they can say that family is everything to them. They claim that without family, they would be nothing, that they would have nothing, they would be nothing. For the most part I believe that to be true, and even if it is, it isn’t that important to me.
You see, I’m generally seen as an introvert, but I don’t think that describes me. I look at myself as a decently social person with a moderately sized circle of friends. In the context of family though, I’m not interested in the common outings, and events that people assume families usually do.
When I think about a family, I think of a group of people, a community if you will, that is genetically tied to each other, and in some exceptions adopted. For this same reason, I don’t think that means that members of a family are obligated to constantly hang around each other or attend events together. Everyday I find myself in a situation where the rest of my family looks at me like an introverted antisocial with no friends. That’s far from true. It’s just that I don’t have the same common interests as they do.
This is especially true for the relationship between my mother and I. Things like going on picnics, or watching a movie together aren’t things that I like to do. I think a large contributor to my bias against family events like that is due to the fact that with almost family gathering, the topic is about me. Not about my accomplishments, or about how I’ve changed, but about how bad of a child I am. How I don’t do this, or how I simply don’t compare to some of our other successful family members (not to say I’m unsuccessful, just not within the same category).
I’m sure this is evident among a lot of people, and it might not seem that bad. However, facing constant antagonizing is affects my mental and emotional state adversely. The product of this is my constant melancholy attitude and disregard for emotionally displeasing events. I’m always asked whether I’m depressed, or unhappy with life. That isn’t the case. It’s most likely that I don’t want to be around you.
So for me, even though family is something that I highly regard. It’s not wholly important to me.